&hajaaaaar!!!

IM NOT HAJAR !

2010-06-26T11:13:00.002+08:00

HAJAAAAAAAAAAAR ! I don't want them to leave lehh . Awwwww, I'm going to miss them .Showcase was worth a thousand million times ! I dont want to forget anything about the showcase . Haha . The waving, the touchings, the joy . Dongwoon freaking ran to me laaaa, and held out his hand to me . OMGOSHIII . Hahahahahaahahha ! I remember how he smile widely with his teeth when he say my placard & wave . Waaaaaah . I remember how he look at me and nod his head . GOOOOOOSH ! HAHAHAHA . I LOVE THE SHOWCASE :D & HOW I HOPE THERE'S NO END ! Last 2 songs rock ttm!

PS: IM NOT HAJAR :D

FANDOM.

2010-06-05T16:53:00.001+08:00

6th June - SUPER JUNIOR

19th-22nd June - UKISS

23rd-26th June - BEAST

JUNE=AMZINGLY AWESOME

YET @#$%&**)(_)^&%#@w$e%^

GRADUATION~♥

2010-05-27T02:41:00.003+08:00

26TH MAY 2010

FINALLY~!

MY GRADUATION~!!!!!!

I AM GRADUATED~!!!

*tears*

thanks mummy & daddy

for attending my graduation ceremony~!!

VIVIAN, HUIMIN, PEKFAN, EN

WE GRADUATED~!!!!!

THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE~!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!

눈물....

2010-05-11T22:31:00.002+08:00

"내 앞에서 울...."

HELLO!

i am tired.

and right now,

i have no idea what i want to do.

BORED.

& sleepy.

BUT

i do not want to sleep yet.

WHERE IS YOSEOB?!

will he YOZM before he sleep today?

like he usually does?

i really hope he is getting better.

He has been sick for almost 2 weeks already ㅠ.ㅠ

ahhh!!

Uncle had his first chemotherapy today.

it took longer than i expected!!

i was at the hospital for almost half of the day.

i am getting more familiar with the hospital.

BUT

i am scared ill forgot all the directions in a few days.

lol. i fail.

I AM BACK.

2010-05-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

surprise?

for once, i forgot that i have a BLOG.

wahahahaha.

Today was my 2nd time helping my uncle.

Today was his first radiotherapy session.

When the nurse was talking about the side effects of the therapy,

I was shocked at how scary it sounds. =(

And i shall not remind myself of it. ㅜㅜ

삼촌은 괜찮을거야.

괜찮아질거에요~ ^^

삼촌을 믿지해야징~~

삼촌 힘내세용~!!

화이팅~!!

I think i am getting better at pushing the wheel chair!

proud of me? haha~

Now i need to memorize which level my uncle need to go everyday.

I am such a direction idiot.

ahh,

and my dad is warded,

so i went to visit daddy too, along with uncle~

THAT IS WHY I REACH HOME LATE!

haha~ *they talk & talk & talk*

I shall write here more often.

absurd.

2009-08-15T13:10:00.002+08:00

is he playing on me?!

cause if he is.

i won't be liking any of it.

damn it.

abnormal.

2009-08-14T23:50:00.003+08:00

ooookay.

so my post earlier was updated

when i was kinda irritated so it sound a bit...wrong?

anyway,

just reached home

and iam breaking away

from-my-every-now-and-then

MIA

hhahaha~

i have no idea why

am i always MIA-ing

when reports and projects are all handed up.

hmmm.

no lesson/school = MIA

anyway,

found out vivian added him

just because she want my house number.

so weird.

didnt even know he have my house number

and they do chat for like what?

a few hours?

how in the world

am i not interested in what they were conversing about.

1 week ago,

before MIA-ing,

i went to school even though iam sick.

THANKS to the panel review presentation. =.=

and after review,

i went to cca.

and after cca,

vivian wanted to die die go pasar malam

at cck even though she stay in tpy!

retarded kid.

it's been a while since i went out with her.

we went out almost errr every week, last year. LOL

and thank god she manage to catch the last train home.

and after that friday,

i start MIA-ing

i just shove my laptop and hp away.

dont care about them at all.

and yesterday, i somehow take a look at my hp.

i was surprise as usual.

hahahah~

so many sms and missed call.

theres like 3 missed call from yoko sensei.

and iam being a bad student by not returning her calls

gomenasai sensei! haha~

i did pick up your call today though.

HAHAHA~

so the reason vivi finding me?

she wanted to drag me to the toy convention!

oh great!

so there i was in suntec today

being dragged everywhere.

i for once

try to understand all the toys

and try to act as if iam enjoying myself.

I SERIOUSLY DID TRY OKAY.

it wasnt THAT bad.

i even bought a bear keychain or something.

but seriously,

it was tiring.

trying to walk the entire convention.

trying to act all bouncy and everything.

BUT

i did enjoyed myself...so...

and after convention.

worst to come.

camp meeting and cca points meeting.

shall not elaborate on these

stupid half redundant meetings.

somehow,

17 year old jia xuan is now my

'crush issues' listening ear.

i wonder how that happened.

some stuff, i just can't ask vivian.

she's as clueless as iam.

soooo...

and she irritate me by saying

how fat she look beside her bf.

silly seriously.

she's not even fat to start off.

weirdo.

sorry about today post being sooo messy and unorganised.

cause my head is currently in this state.

sucks really!

stupid.

2009-08-14T09:27:00.003+08:00

CONCLUSION

his nice to every human being.

is it a good thing!?!??!

and what's with me

with acting all wrong

when i found out

that vivi added him.

............

and why both vivi and jordan stop texting!?

and huimin not replying!?!?!?

XANDER & FYP

2009-07-30T09:56:00.008+08:00

1000hr

Alexander said his going to be online yesterday.
but he didnt!
did i misunderstood his words?!
LOL

Took my japanese speaking test yesterday
PRETTY MUCH A DISASTER.
seriously.
The worst speaking test i've ever done.
LOL~
but still, sensei said it was
....not bad. quite ok.
hahah~

Today, i didnt feel like going to school AT ALL.
usually on fyp days,
i'll head out around 7am.
today, i just stare at the clock as it ticks.
7.10am....7.20am...7.30am...
i was still seated on my bed!
HAHAHA~
then i realise if i don't catch the 7.40 bus,
i won't reach school before 8.30!
so eventually i get ready for school.
AND I REACHED AT 8.26.
so iam not really consider LATE!

supervisor just came,
he said
"all your hardware component will probably reach tomorrow"
"so durring vpp you can do your hardware"
"AND NEXT SEM YOU NO NEED TO DO ANYTHING"
cause we errr completed our project already!
HAHAHAAHAHAH~
omg the best thing he said this entire semester was
"today, you can rest lah."
HAHAHAHA~
when he said that, me and pekfan was like
grinning and laughing.
BUT
Zuoru was like
"NO! cannot!"
lol. as expected from the hard working
slash
do all the work even though we want to help out.

okay i think iam crazy.

알렉산더!

2009-07-29T13:22:00.011+08:00

ALEXANDER LEE EUSEBIO!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
and thanks for telling us you received our gifts!!!!
"YOUR WELCOME"
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
알렉산더!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

ANYWAY,
alot of things to say.
BUT.
not now!
haha~

________________________________________________________

i used to be just fine
when you walk passed me without any reaction.
*even though you force yourself not to*
now,
it's different.
Whenever you did that,
i got hurt.
and especially when you wave only at my friend
which you don't really know,
aside her name cause i always talk to you about her
Maybe you still think that i don't want to be notice.
do you really still think that!?!
do you really not know!??!
some part of me even want to scream out your name everytime i saw you.

Something in me is telling me
that this is not right.
i shouldn't be feeling this way.
or rather thinking this way.
why oh why!?

nightmare continues.

2009-07-27T21:42:00.004+08:00

seriously.
i've been dying to update,
but i just can't find the time.
>.< pathatic much!

i can't can't wait for this and next week to end.
by then, i got a few days break at least!
then i can start mugging for exams >.<

stress
stress
stress

gaaah.

random.
넌 정말 모르나봐 내가 널 좋아하는지
말을 해볼까말까
내가 말을 안해도 니가 알아주면 안돼?!?!
고백하지 않아도 니가 알아서 와주면 안돼?!?!
내 눈을 바라봐 뻔히 써 있잖아 넌 왜 이렇게도 몰라!??!

DEAD.

2009-07-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

TOMORROW.

must reach school at 7.45am

I HATE IT!

why must we go to some army camp!?

grrrr.

and i thought this was a celebration..

SINCE

EPM class start at 8!

i thought he will cancel the class

INSTEAD!

he will held a class at 3pm!

AHH GREAT!

when i usually have 6hrs free,

there's nothing going on.

and now when i need that whole 6hrs to study for my japanese exam,

then he need to use up my time.

argh!

sooo frustrating!!

and worst.

he want us to hand in our 500 report tomorrow as well

he didnt even say what exactly we must write.

AHHHHHHHHHH!

i need to study laaa!

okay.

going to study jap for a few hrs.

then shall start crapping on my report.

X_x

WEDNESDAY & THURSDAY!

2009-07-17T09:05:00.004+08:00

oookay.

wanted to update.

really!

BUT.

i forgot! hahahahahah~

WEDNESDAY

it was obviously hell-ish.

Since i got 6hrs free before my jap class,

pekfan decide to drag me to amk >_<

she wanted to 'walk walk' and buy 'old old' comics

and buy alot of nail polish(...again)!

=_=

and since huimin isint working, i drag her along!

haha~

i bought a bracelet!

hahaha! ^^

and i saw a nice heel

and its on discount and its nice and hot!

but..i never buy. hahah~

THURSDAY

you know,

ever since i told Jordan

that i NEVER even once late for class,

even if its start at 8am,

BUT

since MONDAY, i was constantly late x_X

and on thursday was the worst!!

it was fyp,

and fyp got to take attendance from a computer

with a stupid retarded webcam attached to it!

*so no cheating*

and as you know fyp is 8-5!

once the clock strike 8.30,

youre considered absent!

AND SHIT,

i reached at 8.40!

i should never ever tell Jordan something which is as dangerous as this!

everytime i told him something,

something bad will prone to happen!!!!

LOL.

and yesterday,

Mirah called! haha~

was shocked!

Since it's been a while since we last met.

She wanted me to accompany her till around 9 plus!

So after school i meeeeet her!!

went to eat...sloooowly.

then we went to the library to waste time.

She was complaining how the library smelll sooo bad!

hahahha~ she even took a feedback form

berangan nak tulis feedback!

in the end she just shove the feedback form to me when she went off!

I then remembered i got to finish up my message page for Alexander and Dongho,

so it's a good timing!

Ask mirah to help me with some designs/writing!

hahaha~

THANKS ALOT AH! haha~

And iam suppose to complete my message page by yesterday night!

BUT

i didnt.

i went to sleeeep. gaaaah T_T

so now in fyp,

IAM GOING TO FINISH IT.

somehow!

haha~

TUESDAY.

2009-07-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

tuesday isint any better than monday.
the only point to look forward to tuesday is that
class start at 1 and end at 5.
yay.

Went to LOT 1 alone today.
I am getting use to going out by myself.
haha~
BUT i can never imagine eating outside
ALONE.
errrm.

anyway,
Went to popular to buy
some awesome coloured papers and ribbons
for Alexander and Dongho letters.
Got to finish them by Thursday.
gaaah rush rush rush!
and i still have no idea how to write a letter full of koreans for Dongho.
>_<

and i just remember tomorrow is WEDNESDAY.
gaah T_T
hell of every week!
I DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOOL TOMORROW!!!!
>_<

I LOVE ONEW!

hahahahahah~

MONDAY >__<

2009-07-13T20:22:00.008+08:00

nothing special happened today.
*even though iam hoping*
never see,
*even though iam hoping*
never hear,
*even though iam hoping*
never say,
*even though iam hoping*
anything interesting today.
LOL!

samo samo monday.
sux-y lectures.
that small round red nose lecturer
is really starting to bug me.
i can't stand having 4 hours of lecture
WITH him , WITHOUT any breaks.
argh!

He even cancel all practical just to conduct more lectures.
how can a human absorb 4hrs of lecture!?
insane much?

okay, so there's 37 students taking this module.
only 37.
and he wont allow 100% passing rate.
so after calculation,
3-4 people will need to volunteer failing he said!
ridiculous much?
and i won't be surprise if there's failure.
this module is effin' hard.

why am i always choosing the wrong module!?!?!?!?
the lecturer said that after our batch,
they will cancel this module
stating it's too hard.
ahhh.
I DONT WANT TO PULL MY GPA DOWN ANY FURTHER!!!!

ANYWAY,

KBS is seriously making everyone mad.

CAN THEY STOP AND LEAVE ONEW ALONE!!

ahhh so irritating.

they should'nt cover up their mistake by doing this!!

freakin maggots!

x_X

2009-07-13T00:39:00.007+08:00

stupid internet.
stupid internet explorer.
stupid computer.
its such a pain in the arse to just update my blog.

anyway,
i wanted to update earlier.
but then i forgot what i initially wanted to update.
and up till now,
which is after 2 days between,
i still have not figure out what i wanted to update.
getting old i assume.
or just paranoid.
for some unknown reasons.
hahaha~

ANYWAY,

iam done with new moon!
yay!!
like finally!
i got to get this twilight thing end-
as sooon as possible!
i've been neglecting my school work just to read!
eiccck!

and recently,

i've beeen dreaming weird things.
and i have no idea what it's trying to convey.

weird.

OHNO~

2009-07-08T20:13:00.002+08:00

WEDNESDAY.
the hell day of every week.
and
iam suppose to have jap lesson today
WHICH
i totally ignore
cause i have no mood for it at ALL.
*something is srsly wrong with me*

When we reached the bus stop,
huimin suggested we go out!
OMG. I SKIP JAP TO HANG OUT?!?!
i didnt want to,
but in the end agree to go wherever they going.
Wanted to catch a movie at first but there's nothing decent to watch
so we throw the idea of watching movie
and decided to head down to bugis instead.

So we went to bugis village.
OMG I SAW SOME OF THE STUFF I WANT!
those studded bracelet or whatever you call them.
i want HOT PINK ones but it's not available.
wanted to buy the baby pink ones,
but
huimin and pekfan ask me to save money
so that if i EVER saw the hot pink ones,
i can buy =.=

we head down to bugis junction and walk more.
then our mouth started to itch. >_<
so we went to have dinner at pastamania!
and then, we walk some more! haha.
window shopping! haha~

Then before i head home,
i bought chewy juniors for my family!!
it was delicious!! yum yum!!

and now,
iam feeling guilty for skipping lesson.
and i wonder what reaction vivian
will give me knowing i skip jap and went to bugis,
without her. HAAHA~

ONEW

2009-07-06T21:28:00.006+08:00

ooookay.
so i can't buy THAT pink gorgeous shoe that onew wears.
cause my leg is too short n fat for it.
and its amazingly expensive too.

so yay for this.
ONEW wore the exact same
errr whats that call?
white studded buckle bracelet?
that i have.
lol.
call me crazy.
HAHAHA.
iam just happy.
lol
oh and thanks to my bro
for buying it for me when we were in KL.
^^;

ANYWAY,
for the first time today,
we had our audio lesson.
OMG THE LECTURER IS FREAKING IRRITATING!!
he talks like a choo chooo train
and expect us to catch everything he said.
and after he talk for 30min,
he declare that every single thing he said will come out for exam.
someone, please kill him for me.
ergh.

Vivian recorded some of his lectures.
cause seriously,
no one can understand or
even have the time to write down what he said.

and what makes me super irritated by him
is
his
NOSE!

its small and round and red
ITS JUST IRRITATING.
wo0ps sorry.
iam not discriminating against his looks.
hahahahha~

TWILIGHT =)

2009-07-05T17:57:00.006+08:00

ooookay.
so iam done reading TWILIGHT.

before,

i can't ever foresee myself reading twilight at all.
LMAO.

huimin was just returning pekfan after she completed it.

And i got bored during fyp,

so i pick it up and in no time,

i was reading it o.0

and....

i got addicted to it =.=

that that that EDWARD character.

his just just just i-i-irresistible.

lol.

wondering should i continue reading the whole series.

i don't really have the time.

let's seeeeee.

Hatred.

2009-07-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

I hate how fat iam.

I hate how i know iam fat.

I hate how short iam.

I hate how uncute my feet is,

as in its BIG! ugly.

lmao.

I hate how i can't dance.

I hate how i hate me.

oh don't tell me to love myself more.

Iam already trying to love myself as much as i can.

YAY!

2009-07-03T17:42:00.001+08:00

어제,

뽜써 뽜써 뽜써!!

뽜써 뽜써 뽜써!!!!

봐써요!!!!

hahaha~

하지만,

아직도 내가 ****을 그리워

왜?!?!

SLEEPY.

2009-07-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

for the first time

i was sleepy in japanese class.

i was seriously sleepy to the point that i kept falling asleeeeep!!

tried to make jokes, but it didnt work.

a slap dosent work either.

sms, help abit.

haha~
my friends told me i look awfully awful.

LMAO

BUT.

the moment i reach home

i wasn't sleepy anymore!

this is what i hate.

i can't sleep at night

even though iam dead tired.

gaaaah

OMG.

THE SHOE IS SOOOO PRETTY!

onew wore it during one of his juliette performance.

and a few days ago pekfan shock me when she wears it.

she bought it for $159!

i waaaant!!!

but but but.

my leg is short and fat.

confirm it will look silly on me.

sigh.

@$%#%^

LAZY X_X

2009-06-30T20:45:00.001+08:00

i wanted to blog about my vacation to
genting & KL
BUT
i was lazy!
HAHA~
i shall post pictures up
WHEN IAM NTO LAZY.
hahahahahaa.

ah, and i met

FT ISLAND

when they came singapore

i shall blog about them when

IAM NOT LAZY.

and damn.
school reopen.
sigh >_<

p.s : 어디있는거야?!

보고 싶어! >.<

SHINEE~♥

2009-06-17T17:56:00.001+08:00

OMG SHINEE!!!
♥♥♥

SHOPPING~♥

2009-06-17T10:24:00.000+08:00

oooookay.

supposingly iam suppose to meet huimin at 10.15am

and now its 10.25am!

unfortunately

HUIMIN IS STILL IN HER LALA LAND!!

haha~

and pekfan suddenly say she can't make it =X

i hope huimin wake up soon!!

i can only shop till around 3pm!!

IAM GOING GENTING TONIGHT!!

WEEEEE!!! =)

SHOES~♥

2009-06-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

I WANT!!

SO PRETTY!!!

yeah :)

2009-06-15T00:22:00.001+08:00

new layout.
like finally!
=)

thanks leha! haha~